What do you mean by "cannibalistic desires"?

I have the desire to eat people. It is not sexual. I think it might come from my being exposed to cannibal forums and a cannibal fetish site when I was only 13-14. Again, not fun. I do not have the URGE to act on it. But the desire remains and causes me distress regardless.

What do you use to cope?

Lighthearted dark jokes like "I'll eat them for you" (referencing people who hurt my friends). It makes me feel like I'm not suppressing the desires and reminds me that my friends accept me for who I am. I do not use fictional media for this, either. It would make me feel a little ill.